Retrograde Reflections
from the archives of a past life
Peace and Power Dear Soul,
I’d like to start this weeks article by breaking down the concept of Sankofa which is an Akan term meaning it is not taboo to fetch what is at risk of being left behind.
“Sankofa symbolizes the Akan people’s quest for knowledge with the implication that the quest is based on critical examination, and intelligent and patient investigation.”
In the spirit of looking back, I invite you to check out this post from the Abundaverse archives when I was working as a model in the Big Apple.
Originally written January 21, 2016
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As I’ve grown, and matured in my career I have been met with quite a bit of challenges. I’ve had my hard work and investments reduced and defined as a pretty face, a product, or just a means to make money and most of it for someone else. I’ve been paid in well wishes, empty promises, and the ever popular exposure neither of which can seem to sustain me or my financial security.
I’ve traveled countless hours by car, train and on foot accompanied by my roller bag full of clothes and shoes for the possibility a photographer to meet me half way in producing stellar images, in a timely manner. This is done so I can then take those photos to an agency as proof as to why I am worthy to be signed and represented and shown to their deities - I mean clients.
I am sure I have heard it all; “You’re too tall, Your butt and hips are too big, Your books just not strong enough AND Your book is too strong” I’ve been in and out of every model agency from NY to Miami and have been turned down and turned away from more agents and bookers than I can care to remember.
As I reflect on a career full of quality projects, success and collaborations, I'm glad I never gave up.
Quite frankly, fitting in with others has never really been my thing and anything worth having is worth fighting for. Some times the battle is against those professional haters who gave up on their dreams a long time ago and wish I would too. To be real, I find the only battle is within myself. I have to fight those parts of me that doubt I can do it, the fears and the what ifs. Additionally, I have to go straight WWF on any thought that creeps in trying to rationalize why it’s ok to give up.
When building an empire there will be many who will test your values. Many more who will fight your vision. I encourage you to stay focused, play your game and be ever careful in your actions. Because when your time comes and you must fight, you will be in a better position to strike with accuracy, strength and TENACITEA.
That is of course if you want to live the dream.
What will you fight for?
